Another sad rant...

I'm only doing this because I don't have anyone who I can talk to about all of this... so doing this helps me feel a tiny bit better...

The guy I'm seeing... well... I love him...I really and trully do... but all I am for him is a very special person... he says that he has special feelings for me... but that's not love...
I was kind of hoping though that something could happen between us in the future... and so I asked him if he thinks that anything can...

He simply said that he does feel a connection between us... but he thinks it would be dificult... he's not saying never but he can't reassure me right now...

and so... i feel lost... and unwanted... I trully love him and any obstacle that could come between us I would work on...

but he's not ready for a relationship right now... and that's fine, i was asking about the future but he still didn't say "yes maybe something could be possible in the future" but he also didn't say "no nothing will never come out of this, we're just special friends"...

So now I'm confused... and alone with no one to talk to about this...

okay I'll just stop here... no one will read this anyway...